Picture this, I come home after a long day of being nagged on the phone by people I will probably never meet in real life. I'm tried. I kick off my flats, feed my dog, and settle on the couch to check Facebook. Some nights I then proceed to make dinner. Other nights I help my husband cook. We finish making our meal and settle on the couch again to catch up on whatever series we are watching. We either are sucked into shows to the rest of the night or then try to get things related to our hobbies done, but keep in mind, we are both very tired. Some nights I need to clean. Mounds of laundry, begging to be folded are calling to me as I type this very sentence. There is vacuuming and dishes and scrubbing and sweeping. There is a pup that needs play time. There is my tired mind that just wants to sit down, turn off, and watch youtube for a few hours. I've been musing over why a lot of my nerdy hobbies have fallen to the side. Am I getting lazy? Yes, yes I am. Am I sick of being a nerd? No, never...it's just....
I feel like I don't have the time to be a nerd anymore.
When I first had this thought I then thought I was being ridiculous! I should always have time to be who I am! I am a nerd! But then, as my over active mind usually does, I had another thought. Is being a nerd my hobby or is it my lifestyle? I can say that right now I am not doing the normal nerdy activities I usually would be doing. Does that make me stop being a nerd? Have I lost touch with my roots if I'd rather read "Gone Girl" right now instead of the Game of Thrones books?
|In my defense I think Flynn and Martin might be cousins|
I continued this panic for sometime. Maybe it was time to close up shop, start watching the Bachelorette like so many of my coworkers, and get some highlights. Luckily, I'm getting better at calming my personal panic. Yes, the last year of my life I have put many of my normal passions in the backseat. Writing, reading, my crafts, they are all hobbies, but they are all part of who I am. Being a nerd, just like those activities, isn't something I do just for fun. Well, yes, I do research and learn nerdy things because I think it's fun, but it goes so much deeper than that. Being a nerd is a culture. It is being a part of a community of likeminded individuals. It is a form of express. It is a passion. I am a nerd not because it passes the time, I am a nerd because it gives me a place where I belong. My focus has been elsewhere but I am happy to settle back into my routine. A year or so of routine change will take a while to adjust. Also, I have a life beyond being a nerd. Being a nerd is just one patch that makes up me. It's a big patch, I am happy to say!
What do you think? Are you a nerd because it's a hobby? Do you see it as a lifestyle? Or is it something more? Let me know!
It's good to be back!